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Ji Sung at the 51st Baeksang awards (and why he was robbed)

So the 51st Baeksang Awards ceremony took place today. I can’t speak for the movie categories seeing as I’m more of a drama person but seriously, Ji Sung was robbed. As much as I like Lee Sungmin that Best Actor award had Ji Sung’s name etched on it. And yet, he lost out. I wonder why fair award shows are such a rarity regardless of what country you look at.

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Kill Me Heal Me (and why it still doesn’t feel over)

The fact that I didn’t post something like this after Liar Game says loads about how much more I love Kill Me Heal Me. Liar Game had a tightly-written, brilliantly paced plot with nary a hole in sight. Kill Me Heal Me had several flaws that I can name off the top of my head, but those can be made allowance for considering how plagued the production was with setbacks, from last-minute casting to Ji Sung’s poor vocal cords dying. I love both shows dearly but Kill Me Heal Me will likely remain eternally more dear for several reasons. Firstly, it had a level of heart that I’ve never seen before (in American shows or movies or other Kdramas). Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum’s ease with each other and incredibly acting skills resulted in a love so deep and glorious, it was awe-inspiring to watch them on screen. Secondly, KMHM is over. There’s no doubt about it, no hope for a second season to keep me warm at night like with Liar Game . Therefore every morsel becomes incredibly dear, and letting go is all the harder. My third reason can be summed up in three syllables: Shin Segi.


Thetalkingcupboard has a wonderful comic on just how things were for Segi
(She’s also compiled an AMAZING list of parody videos made by fans! Rijin x Perry anyone?)

Reading it makes things all the worse, and reopens every single wound in my heart at his departure. Segi was written as a part of Dohyun’s broken psyche, the largest fragment of all his personalities but a fragment nevertheless. Yet, throughout the show, he has never felt more real. He was far more nuanced, more strong, and much more angry than the other personalities. Rather than a fragment of Dohyun, Dohyun has often felt like a fragment of him, especially during the earlier episodes. Looking at it from a logical point of view, Segi isn’t the main personality, and therefore never had a chance. But he’s always been the most vibrant, and the most broken person in the show. As such, seeing him vanish just like that is incredibly painful, especially since we’ve seen how much he wanted to live, and just how much he loved Rijin, time and time again.
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He always felt like a full-fledged person, not that the other personalities weren’t, but he was just so real. Perhaps the fault lies with Ji Sung for bringing Segi to life so perfectly, such that one could easily say that three men loved Rijin: Ri On, Segi and Dohyun. That’s why this goodbye remains the most painful, heart-wrenching thing I’ve ever seen. I don’t think I’ve ever cried so hard before.  Even the idea that he’s living inside as a part of Dohyun isn’t enough consolation at times. Because Shin Segi was meant to walk the night and drive like a madman. And so my head cannot stop relieving the moment he leaves, with Ji Sung’s lovely OST echoing in my ears, saying it’s not fair, it’s not fair that he had to leave.


To me, just like Rijin and Dohyun, Segi needed to be healed as well. But then I think about it logically and realize that Segi and Dohyun are one and the same so healing one is the same as healing the other. I wanted both men to stay with her forever, for Segi to heal at Rijin’s side, so that she’d have the Beast and the Prince. No one would love her more. But with the root of Dohyun’s DID addressed, there was no longer any reason for him to continue to have DID. Writer Jin Soowan made the right choice here in sending Segi off, but some part of me cannot do the same, and so I remain unable to send off KMHM. Oh Ji Sung, the fault lies with you for making him and this show so perfect. In the spirit of finally letting him go, I make this post. Dear, dear Segi, or Dohyun rather, live long and happily inside Dohyun, as an irreversible part of Dohyun. He’s already started talking like you
(That is definitely the way Segi looks at her)
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His gaze is now eerily similar to your own


he dresses like you


who knows what else might come through? Perhaps even a wink

And Rijin loves you just as much as she does him.

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Rijin wasn’t rejecting you. She was healing you, fitting you back into the puzzle you belong to, so that neither you nor Dohyun need to live incomplete lives anymore. The Beast is the Prince, she knew that from the start, she’s just making sure you know it as well.


So don’t worry ’cause Dohyun’s going to be growling the way you do, switching to banmal the way you do, disregarding social norms to live life freely the way you did. You’re out of the basement now. Be happy with the woman you love, who loves you back just as dearly.

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Yup, she’ll play with you forever. Just as she did when you and Dohyun weren’t one

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So remember it, the night of March 12, 2015. The night you gained everything you ever wanted.

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Be happy you two.

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PS: All the cast interviews, the intial press conference and the wrap-up party BTS have been added to the complete Kill Me Heal Me torrent, so I recommend any who hasn’t seen either to watch it! I can help with torrenting if you need me to! 🙂 Plus there’s an absolutely beautiful epilogue written by Mau_Cherry on the KMHM soompi thread and I really, really recommend checking it out, since she remains absolutely true to the story and its wonderful characters. Here’s the link!:
It’s the 17th post on that page (I think) and in is blue lettering. Enjoy!

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Kill Me Heal Me Finale Ep 20 Review (and Shin Segi the Magnificent’s last stand)

Okay, my shirt is soaked with tears. I’m not even exaggerating in the slightest, my eyes feel raw. I feel raw, numb, dazed. This is going to be some withdrawal.

Let’s start with an overview of how far we’ve come before we get to the nitty gritties. Kill Me Heal Me, was a production that by all rights should have been a failure. Tossed and turned between actors and actresses, it was a surprise when an established pair suddenly clinched the lead roles. And one for which I’m profoundly, unbelievably grateful. Not only did Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum rise above and beyond to make this show a success, they did it with such incredibly heart and passion that it’ll be a while before I forget this (if ever). Kill Me Heal Me started off as a comedy of sorts, with a rather violent first two episodes, some pretty fun engrish and much flitting between genres. I liked it from the start, Ji Sung’s “I will come back…and break every single piece of your bone” had me gasping for air from how sexy that drawl was. I knew I’d be coming back for more. I just didn’t expect it to be this good. The show’s tone began to change slightly as we wore into episodes 4-7, pain, self-hatred, fear, concern, family politics set a rather serious tone, broken only by the alters; appearances and the trouble they caused. Episode 8 was where this took a turn towards the light and happy, with Rijin becoming Dohyun’s physician and Yona running around wreaking havoc and surprise kisses (*squeal*) and bouts of chasing after each other (literally and figuratively) and trying to tame Segi. Throughout it was an undercurrent of tension, a frission of conflict, regarding Dohyun’s past and just who the child in the basement was. Episode 14 was yet another turning point upon which all major secrets were revealed and Dohyun and Rijin broke down in agony. Pain, sacrifice, love and sorrow wrung hearts throughout episodes 15-17 until Segi reappeared and stretched out his hand, after which all the alters took turns in ensuring that Dohyun’s happiness was safeguarded. Episode19 was where ends began to tie up. And Episode 20 was where it was all wrapped up with a bow on top.


I truthfully don’t know whether I can bear to watch this drama again until after a while has passed. This episode was painful, to say the least, as we said goodbye to all the alters, including out very recent Mr. X, in a process that showed just how they might have been formed in the first place.

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Kill Me Heal Me Ep 19 Review (and bon voyage Perry Park! You will be missed!)

As usual, I’m left with the question of just where to begin. Besides reiterating just how much I love this show, the actors and characters that is. It’s official. Liar Game, you’ve been supplanted, utterly and completely owned by the tour de force that is Kill Me Heal Me. Forgive me Ha Woo Jin.

I could go on on a bit further on how I never thought I’d ever meet another drama, especially not this soon, that would EVER beat out Liar Game but there you go. I’ve never been this lost, this madly in love with a show, weeping in full force during the moments of incredible emotion and depth, laughing out loud during the hilarious parts and left with this sense of joy and effervescent hope, once I was done.

Thank you, show. Thank you. I can’t believe tomorrow is good-bye. But let’s focus on today.

I’m just really happy with the way this episode progressed, focusing on the only three people I care about. Dohyun, Rijin and Ri On. These aren’t characters to me but real people. I have never felt such…I really don’t know how to say it. It’s like reading a book and watching the character jump from the pages into your startled arms. Never have I seen such good portrayals of good, even if a little whacked (I’m looking at you Yona) human beings. (Why must we say goodbye?)

I’m ridiculously glad at how well Dohyun’s stepping up to the occasion and moving forward. It may seem as though the conflicts are being resolved too easily (the thing with Alex for one), but as I said about a week ago, the only hurdle that really mattered was the abuse, pain and guilt these two had to overcome. Everything else, be it shareholder meetings, or Chaeyeon, or Ki Joon or Alex, is an afterthought. Seeing that Dohyun’s been taking the wind out of Alex’s ‘bombshell’ as well, I’m glad that things ended up the way they did. What Dohyun said to Alex was a long time coming and demonstrates just how far he’s grown. He still shoulders much of the guilt and blame (though he really shouldn’t in this case, Alex made his own bed) but that’s one of his best and worst character traits, his sense of responsibility, his way of narrowing everything down such that it’s all his fault (remember when Rijin wanted to eat her mother’s duck stew in ep 13?). It makes him a lot more aware of others’ pains and problems, and a hell of a lot more empathetic and understanding. Seems to me that him and Rijin aren’t so different in that respect.

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Nevertheless, Ki Joon still knows about Dohyun’s DID, but I still don’t think it’s going to be a big deal. They won’t shove company politics down our throat in one episode. Dohyun’s title as Vice-president was only ever one of the many things that got tossed his way because he was Seungjin’s heir. He never wanted anything to do with it, and can survive just fine without it. It’s not a central aspect of his life at all (unlike Ji Sung’s previous role as Minhyuk in Secret, who couldn’t imagine not having the company, or Yoojung!).

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(I’d like to see him in a drama soon. We didn’t get to see too much of him this time, but I have a feeling that he could be a great male lead)

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Major, major props to the writer for handling the Chaeyeon arc so well. I do feel for Chaeyeon in some sense. Dohyun did treat her like a princess, and after all Ki Joon’s screeching and shoving, the contrast must have felt like paradise. Girl, just wants someone who loves her, I really can’t blame her for that. But she’s got to stop when he’s pushing her away, and I’m glad that arc was ended definitely today. It was quite, quite brave of Dohyun to take two large steps in one day, and I’m really glad that his resolve didn’t waver. He went straight for it. And we all saw how she reacted. I don’t think it was entirely disgust on her part, but more like the last flaming bit of hope within her was snuffed out as she realized that even when he did come to find her, it wasn’t because of anything he felt for her. Whatever he felt is well and truly dead, and she doesn’t want to deal with a man who’ll change on her so quickly. I like how the reaction is human, and doesn’t paint her as some psycho second female lead. Props again, to you writer-nim!

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Dohyun may be plowing through with as much resolve as possible, but he’s far from impervious to pain. His reaction after Chaeyeon’s departure (oh Ji Sung, must you be so perfect?)was one of such quiet acceptance in the face of yet another rejection (because it’s definitely a rejection of both him as a romantic interest, but also as a person) that I just wanted to rush over and give him a hug. Luckily there’s someone who’ll be doing that for him from now on. Continue reading “Kill Me Heal Me Ep 19 Review (and bon voyage Perry Park! You will be missed!)”

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Kill Me Heal Me Ep 18 Review (and we’re back on track baby!)

Is it day or night? Heaven or Earth? Where am I? Who am I? This episode has left me a complete and utter mess. I can’t even think or breathe at the moment. Good Lord, what is this complete and utter perfection? I can barely breathe from laughing like a madwoman, my cheeks hurt so bad at the moment for the crazy amounts of grinning, and my eyes were busy flip-flopping between laughing and crying.
Episode 18 was a sum of every single reason as to why I love this show. Pathos, comedy, romance, and rollicking fun!

Shin Se Gi’s wonderful 25 minutes in this show were just as brilliant as I’d hoped. Our man-boy is just as much fun as usual, and as completely mental as you might expect. I love how Rijin was already prepared for him to do something insane and texted Secretary Ahn in advance. See that, drama heroines? That’s called foresight, and I love that she knows that he’s a wildcard and accommodates for it (instead of being blind to his faults) because of how much she cares. Props to King Segi, himself, for obeying Rijin’s every command and I died of laughter the moment he gave up trying to keep rule number three.

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And the beautiful conversation he had with Rijin was more proof to me that Segi really faces things head on. He’s similar with Dohyun in that neither wanted to bring up her lost memories if she didn’t remember them. Both wanted to protect her that way, but Segi has the courage to extend his hand and deal with the aftermath.

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Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum have this incredible ability to make you feel everything their character is feeling. They make their characters three-dimensional in a manner that I wish all other actors could learn from. I can’t imagine another actress or actor pulling off this role, I really truly can’t. just as in Secret, these two took what they were given and made what could have been terrible cardboard –like characters blossom to incredible heights. You feel every bit of their pain and joy, and let me tell you that scene in the car after Dohyun returns, made my heart bleed like nothing ever has. You could see every bit of emotion rising in Hwang Jungeum’s eyes, their heartache was so palpable, I’m ruined for all other dramas. For eternity, or until these two pair up again. Continue reading “Kill Me Heal Me Ep 18 Review (and we’re back on track baby!)”

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Kill Me Heal Me Ep 17 Review (and Shin Segi the Magnificent IS BACK!)

This episode cleared up a lot of confusion regarding just what happened 21 years ago, and how badly Dohyun and Rijin’s lives were destroyed but was largely filler in terms of our leads taking action to secure their present

I’m just going to put this out of the way right now. If Chaeyeon tries/forces Dohyun into a contract marriage or whatever, I’m going to have a cow. Firstly, because it’s silly way of raising tension and sloppy writing to boot. This show has demonstrated anything but that so far, so I hope it doesn’t break its winning strea. Secondly, if Dohyun agrees to it (seeing that he said he was slowly going to make Seungjin his, this episode), I’m going to murder him and chuck this show in the rubbish pile, and only watch the final episode. I don’t care if it’s for Seungjin or ‘finding the truth’ or whatever, Dohyun and Segi the Magnificent can find the truth all by themselves and don’t need to ‘protect Seungjin’ in order to get it. Both are rightly repulsed by having to protect the Seungjin family as well and therefore shouldn’t bother with doing so, even for noble reasons. And just who does Chaeyeon think she is to appeal to Evil Grandma for her ‘permission’. Dohyun’s permission is what you need, girl. See I would feel sorry for her seeing how Segi played his cards well and has her confused, but seriously I’d run as far away as possible from a man who keeps flip-flopping like that and keeps warning you to stay away from him. How about you do just that? Just go away and live your life, leave Dohyun alone.

With that out of the way, I had a suspicion during episode 16 when I saw Rijin with her phone that there would be some sort of video message, but seeing that it didn’t make an appearance within Dohyun’s post-breakup sorrow, I thought I was reading too much into it. I’m glad to see that she had the courage to freely profess her love for Dohyun, while he shies away repeatedly not knowing what to do.

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Ri On had the right idea (despite poor execution) in this episode. It is slightly hypocritical for him to point out just how much the others are hurting when it’s arguably his fault that it got this far. But frankly, as I can’t think of a way he would ever have broken the news that she was abused to her, I’m willing to cut him quite a bit of slack. Rijin needed a distraction, and he was willing to be as painfully cruel as he needed to be to get her out of her shell (exactly what he did when they were 7 years old). Rijin knows this, and has never failed to understand his small kindnesses and the depth of his love for her, hence the absolutely beautiful wordless exchange between the two. Ri On may unfortunately relegated to second lead status, the Oppa that will always just be the Oppa, but he doesn’t let that stop him from being the damn best oppa ever, and both Rijin (and Yona!) know and love that.

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I love guessing right, and that my theory in all the alters being some manifestation of real people that Dohyun had known is accurate, makes me really happy. We know now the identity of the original Perry Park, Dohyun’s dad, as he was before he turned hard and cold and let revenge and his father’s constant belittling get to his mind. I’m a bit disappointed that Segi isn’t Dohyun’s really name but ah well, I’ll take what I can get. I wonder who Yona and Yosub are based on now and if we’ll ever see the mysterious Mr. X though, time is running out and I can’t wait to see where this show goes.

What this episode truly established during those flashbacks is that there wasn’t just one person responsible for what happen 21 years ago. This reminds of Secret (Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum ‘s previous drama) in which there wasn’t just one reason that Minhyuk’s lover died. Kudos to Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum for picking such multifaceted and brilliant projects once more. Cha Joon Pyo, Dohyun’s father wasn’t simply an animal, a bad guy who did bad things for the sole purpose of being bad. He shares an eerie similarity with Kang Doyoung from the just as brilliantly written Liar Game in that both are a product of their surroundings, and were unable to cope with being any less loved than they felt they should have been. We see how Joon Pyo’s coddling mother, blind to her child’s faults, created an inferiority complex within him, as he ventured into the outside world and failed to measure to the standards he thought he could scale. How Joon Pyo’s father made things worse by constantly comparing him to Soyeon, how Soyeon shunned him for another (the heart wants what it wants right?), and how he walked away from it all to a more peaceful life. I actually respect him for having the courage to do that, and pitied him all the more during that bright happy conversation with young Dohyun, because we know exactly how his future turned out. Even in his new life, ambition and greed kept pursuing him, this time in the form of his new wife, who’s selfishness led to him having to enter the Cha household once more, and discover that his old wife is passing around a child who isn’t his own as his heir. After years of feeling inferior, he finally cracks and we all know what happened next. It’s amazing just how much would have been solved if he’d been loved and raised properly. I can understand why he did what he did to poor Dohyun and RIjin but I can’t ever forgive or condone what he did. Because two broken lives remain in the wake of those awful months 21 years ago, and we have yet to see if they’ll heal.

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The child actors here are magnificent. I honestly can’t remember the last time I was so moved and horrified by the childhood parts of a Kdrama. The requisite not-so-great acting in part of child actors has been a given for most, and I’ve never had much problem with it seeing that these are kids after all. But that movement Segi emerged from within little Dohyun’s body will never leave my mind. That child emanated such a dangerous, frightening aura I though I’d popped into a horror film. Props to you kid, here’s seeing you go far in the future.

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Kill Me Heal Me Ep 16 Review (AND WHAT GENIUS IS THIS?)

First off Happy Birthday Ji Sung! What a way to round off his special day!

What is this magnificence? This perfection, this utterly intricate web that causes even the most expert writer to reel, what is this? This is genius, this is brilliance. Liar Game, you’re this close to being kicked out of the ballpark by a fast one that I never saw coming. Scratch that you’re tied. How am I supposed to survive until next Wednesday?

Look when, I started this show, I expected a mess. I’d only ever seen Hwang Jung Eum in Full House 2, which was awful though she made it amusing, and I’d never seen any of Ji Sung’s works before, besides having skimmed Secret briefly in 2013, turned off by the angst (though I adore it now). Point is, I came in with VERY low expectation, convinced to watch this only because of the sheer magnetism Ji Sung exerted on my poor heart when watching that first trailer. I got hijinks and humour, leather jackets, lipstick and lousy bombs (I’m looking at you Perry), poignancy and palpitations, gentle understanding and glorious kisses, all wrapped in this lovely sense of sheer joy, and warmth. And I loved it. Little did I know that a carefully spinner was working her spindle, having set into place a web that would soon begin to collapse in on itself. I – and just as with Dohyun yesterday, I seem to have cause to use this word again – adore this show. When the past few episodes began to degenerate rapidly into a horror/psychological thriller. I was overjoyed at the Liar Game-ness of it all, how well plotted and acted it was and how deep the rivers of emotion ran in these wonderful people.

I didn’t expect this.

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This is pure genius and officially escalated this show to Liar Game status, perhaps it’s even better in that it networks all genres seamlessly and effortlessly while Liar Game grabbed your throat and held it for the entirety of the episode, letting you only breathe at the end. Though that was today’s episode. You know it’s a good sign when you’re breathless after a show, and not just because of Ji Sung’s perfection. This explains so damn much. I’m absolutely over the moon at this turn of events.

Seeing that Rijin is the real Cha Dohyun, that leaves the question of just what Dohyun’s real name is. Seeing that his mother’s name is Shin Hwa Ran, that really only leaves one possibility: Shin Segi. This is incredible. The name was clearly pushed on him by Evil Grandma and Mom, and Dohyun, who didn’t remember anything at the time, simply accepted it. Yet some part of him new the truth, and couldn’t stay still as the last part of the girl who’d had to go through so much (and who was his first love) was twisted by the Seungjin family, and so Shin Segi separated from the memory-less Dohyun. This is wonderful. Not only does it give new meaning to Segi’s anger and frustration at being shut up in Dohyun/Ji Sung’s body, but it also makes Dohyun’s words to Segi much more eerie. You will soon become me…I will soon become you. Not only was that a promise but an eerie prediction of what the truth was. Dohyun is Segi, literally, figuratively, and legally. this makes Dohyun’s reinforcement of his name in previous episodes all the more more moving and sad, as it’s not his own. He has just lost the first bit of stability that he clung to. On the bright side, he’s just gained a new piece of himself: Segi. That solves the name game, I’ll be referring to Dohyun and Se gi interchangeably from now on, though Rijin will remain Rijin, because she really is a treasure, and it doesn’t feel right to address her by a name that is part of the most horrible days of her life.

But this raises a whole host of interesting questions. At the end of episode 11, there’s an eerie moment where Segi reverts to Dohyun at the beside of his dad/abuser in the hospital, and crazy dad moves his fingers in the SAME WAY Segi does, that one finger at a time slow roll. The fact that Nana is a projection of Rijin as a child, and today’s revelation, has led me to believe that there may be a real person behind almost every one of Dohyun’s personalities. The keyword here is: who? Who are these people? And most importantly, who truly is the main personality? Continue reading “Kill Me Heal Me Ep 16 Review (AND WHAT GENIUS IS THIS?)”

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Kill Me Heal Me Ep 15 Review (and why it’s not noble idiocy)

I made the mistake (?) of watching the previews of eps 15 and 16 before watching episode 15 today. And honestly, after seeing those previews I was tempted to skipped this week’s episodes. The pain and angst in there nearly made my teeth ache and I thought back to what I wrote about a week ago on my fear that Dohyun would start to treat Rijin like a china doll and that Ri on would begin to posture and argue that he knew what was better for Rijin than she did. Yet a brief clip within the related videos of Dohyun weeping while speaking of Rijin made my change my mind. I skimmed over it briefly, awed by Ji Sung’s acting as usual but Ri On’s tears gave me pause. Plus I love this show too much to do it the disservice of skipping a part of the narrative

So despite the inherent stupidity and noble idiocy that I felt was coming, I went ahead with watching episode 15.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I was completely and utterly wrong in so many ways. It feels like ym heart’s been used for target practice. How am I still breathing?

Yes, Rijin is going to be sent away for her own good. But firstly, this isn’t about Ri on and Dohyun knowing what’s best for Rijin and making decisions on her behalf without her input on the matter. Both men, Dohyun especially, have the horrible misfortune of being placed in an untenable position involving her. Dohyun can’t simply go up to her and blurt out that he’s recovered his memories. He can’t tell her what he’s learned due to how awful, disgusting and traumatic those events were for her. Due to how damn guilty he feels, even though it was something so far out of his control, and out of fear that he’ll shatter the life she’s made for herself. This was the same decision Ri on had to make all those years ago when he found the truth. Should he tell her and risk seeing her hurt and breaking the Oh family up? Or should he remain silent and bear the weight of it, watching her live her life as the bright empathetic person she is? He chose the latter and so does Cha Dohyun. Not because they don’t think her strong enough to handle the pain that will follow (both are quite aware and appreciative of what a strong person she is) but simply because they know it’s going to be long and arduous healing process. Learning that you were horribly abused as a child isn’t going to come easy. She’s going to wonder, why her? why didn’t anyone help her? Dohyun knows this because – and the reason is damn heartbreaking- he’s asked himself those same questions night after painful night. He, who wanted more than anything to love and be loved, knows what she’s going to feel, and never ever would he even think of putting her through that.

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Dear Kill Me Heal Me, what have you done to me? (and why Ji Sung is love)

I have two chapters of statistics and over three chapters of physics to get through, not to mention my french essay but screw all that. Because Kill Me Heal Me is killing me. I love this show. You guys are going to think this is yet another of my hyperbolic exclamations but seriously, dramaland is killing it this year (pun intended) because I’ve fallen so far down the rabbit-hole I don’t see myself getting back up. Ever.

(Edit: I honestly wrote this about a week ago, but kept having trouble with setting up the gallery so I postponed putting it up. Episodes 15 and 16 promise angst a plenty which this show has strayed away from quite a bit so I’m not too upset that it’s here. I just hope it’s resolved quickly for Rijin, Dohyun and Ri on’s sake. Rollercoaster of feels, here I come)

Ji Sung’s acting is beyond brilliant, and has ruined me for most other actors. I can’t even watch Faith without seeing Lee Min Ho’s stilted acting and making mental comparisons to how smexy and perfect Ji Sung would have been in the role. The last twenty minutes of episode 14 today honestly gave me goosebumps. And that ending? I was honestly trembling at the raw anger and horror and sheer pain in his eyes, his tears, hell his snot and the crazy wild-eyed terror in his eyes was…I honestly have no words to do it justice. Bravo, Ji Sung, bravo. Hwang Jung Eum and Park Seo Joon and the awesome Oh Family hit it out of the park, and break the fourth wall with such cheer and joy that you can’t help but want to be there, and be a part of it. The handling of Ri On and Dohyun’s relationship, rivalry and (b)romance (oh Yona!) is  nuanced and warm. The mysteries surrounding the Cha family (well those that pertain to Dohyun that is) finally come to light in a manner that’s horrifying, painful and so damn brilliant I want to cry. The promise of atonement Dohyun ground out while sobbing (and his vow of vengeance) to Evil Mom was an eerie echo of what Segi did to Evil Grandma. The two are definitely on the same side now. Continue reading “Dear Kill Me Heal Me, what have you done to me? (and why Ji Sung is love)”

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