Kill Me Heal Me Ep 18 Review (and we’re back on track baby!)

Is it day or night? Heaven or Earth? Where am I? Who am I? This episode has left me a complete and utter mess. I can’t even think or breathe at the moment. Good Lord, what is this complete and utter perfection? I can barely breathe from laughing like a madwoman, my cheeks hurt so bad at the moment for the crazy amounts of grinning, and my eyes were busy flip-flopping between laughing and crying.
Episode 18 was a sum of every single reason as to why I love this show. Pathos, comedy, romance, and rollicking fun!

Shin Se Gi’s wonderful 25 minutes in this show were just as brilliant as I’d hoped. Our man-boy is just as much fun as usual, and as completely mental as you might expect. I love how Rijin was already prepared for him to do something insane and texted Secretary Ahn in advance. See that, drama heroines? That’s called foresight, and I love that she knows that he’s a wildcard and accommodates for it (instead of being blind to his faults) because of how much she cares. Props to King Segi, himself, for obeying Rijin’s every command and I died of laughter the moment he gave up trying to keep rule number three.

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And the beautiful conversation he had with Rijin was more proof to me that Segi really faces things head on. He’s similar with Dohyun in that neither wanted to bring up her lost memories if she didn’t remember them. Both wanted to protect her that way, but Segi has the courage to extend his hand and deal with the aftermath.

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Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum have this incredible ability to make you feel everything their character is feeling. They make their characters three-dimensional in a manner that I wish all other actors could learn from. I can’t imagine another actress or actor pulling off this role, I really truly can’t. just as in Secret, these two took what they were given and made what could have been terrible cardboard –like characters blossom to incredible heights. You feel every bit of their pain and joy, and let me tell you that scene in the car after Dohyun returns, made my heart bleed like nothing ever has. You could see every bit of emotion rising in Hwang Jungeum’s eyes, their heartache was so palpable, I’m ruined for all other dramas. For eternity, or until these two pair up again. Continue reading


Kill Me Heal Me Ep 17 Review (and Shin Segi the Magnificent IS BACK!)

This episode cleared up a lot of confusion regarding just what happened 21 years ago, and how badly Dohyun and Rijin’s lives were destroyed but was largely filler in terms of our leads taking action to secure their present

I’m just going to put this out of the way right now. If Chaeyeon tries/forces Dohyun into a contract marriage or whatever, I’m going to have a cow. Firstly, because it’s silly way of raising tension and sloppy writing to boot. This show has demonstrated anything but that so far, so I hope it doesn’t break its winning strea. Secondly, if Dohyun agrees to it (seeing that he said he was slowly going to make Seungjin his, this episode), I’m going to murder him and chuck this show in the rubbish pile, and only watch the final episode. I don’t care if it’s for Seungjin or ‘finding the truth’ or whatever, Dohyun and Segi the Magnificent can find the truth all by themselves and don’t need to ‘protect Seungjin’ in order to get it. Both are rightly repulsed by having to protect the Seungjin family as well and therefore shouldn’t bother with doing so, even for noble reasons. And just who does Chaeyeon think she is to appeal to Evil Grandma for her ‘permission’. Dohyun’s permission is what you need, girl. See I would feel sorry for her seeing how Segi played his cards well and has her confused, but seriously I’d run as far away as possible from a man who keeps flip-flopping like that and keeps warning you to stay away from him. How about you do just that? Just go away and live your life, leave Dohyun alone.

With that out of the way, I had a suspicion during episode 16 when I saw Rijin with her phone that there would be some sort of video message, but seeing that it didn’t make an appearance within Dohyun’s post-breakup sorrow, I thought I was reading too much into it. I’m glad to see that she had the courage to freely profess her love for Dohyun, while he shies away repeatedly not knowing what to do.

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Ri On had the right idea (despite poor execution) in this episode. It is slightly hypocritical for him to point out just how much the others are hurting when it’s arguably his fault that it got this far. But frankly, as I can’t think of a way he would ever have broken the news that she was abused to her, I’m willing to cut him quite a bit of slack. Rijin needed a distraction, and he was willing to be as painfully cruel as he needed to be to get her out of her shell (exactly what he did when they were 7 years old). Rijin knows this, and has never failed to understand his small kindnesses and the depth of his love for her, hence the absolutely beautiful wordless exchange between the two. Ri On may unfortunately relegated to second lead status, the Oppa that will always just be the Oppa, but he doesn’t let that stop him from being the damn best oppa ever, and both Rijin (and Yona!) know and love that.

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I love guessing right, and that my theory in all the alters being some manifestation of real people that Dohyun had known is accurate, makes me really happy. We know now the identity of the original Perry Park, Dohyun’s dad, as he was before he turned hard and cold and let revenge and his father’s constant belittling get to his mind. I’m a bit disappointed that Segi isn’t Dohyun’s really name but ah well, I’ll take what I can get. I wonder who Yona and Yosub are based on now and if we’ll ever see the mysterious Mr. X though, time is running out and I can’t wait to see where this show goes.

What this episode truly established during those flashbacks is that there wasn’t just one person responsible for what happen 21 years ago. This reminds of Secret (Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum ‘s previous drama) in which there wasn’t just one reason that Minhyuk’s lover died. Kudos to Ji Sung and Hwang Jungeum for picking such multifaceted and brilliant projects once more. Cha Joon Pyo, Dohyun’s father wasn’t simply an animal, a bad guy who did bad things for the sole purpose of being bad. He shares an eerie similarity with Kang Doyoung from the just as brilliantly written Liar Game in that both are a product of their surroundings, and were unable to cope with being any less loved than they felt they should have been. We see how Joon Pyo’s coddling mother, blind to her child’s faults, created an inferiority complex within him, as he ventured into the outside world and failed to measure to the standards he thought he could scale. How Joon Pyo’s father made things worse by constantly comparing him to Soyeon, how Soyeon shunned him for another (the heart wants what it wants right?), and how he walked away from it all to a more peaceful life. I actually respect him for having the courage to do that, and pitied him all the more during that bright happy conversation with young Dohyun, because we know exactly how his future turned out. Even in his new life, ambition and greed kept pursuing him, this time in the form of his new wife, who’s selfishness led to him having to enter the Cha household once more, and discover that his old wife is passing around a child who isn’t his own as his heir. After years of feeling inferior, he finally cracks and we all know what happened next. It’s amazing just how much would have been solved if he’d been loved and raised properly. I can understand why he did what he did to poor Dohyun and RIjin but I can’t ever forgive or condone what he did. Because two broken lives remain in the wake of those awful months 21 years ago, and we have yet to see if they’ll heal.

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The child actors here are magnificent. I honestly can’t remember the last time I was so moved and horrified by the childhood parts of a Kdrama. The requisite not-so-great acting in part of child actors has been a given for most, and I’ve never had much problem with it seeing that these are kids after all. But that movement Segi emerged from within little Dohyun’s body will never leave my mind. That child emanated such a dangerous, frightening aura I though I’d popped into a horror film. Props to you kid, here’s seeing you go far in the future.

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Kill Me Heal Me Ep 16 Review (AND WHAT GENIUS IS THIS?)

First off Happy Birthday Ji Sung! What a way to round off his special day!

What is this magnificence? This perfection, this utterly intricate web that causes even the most expert writer to reel, what is this? This is genius, this is brilliance. Liar Game, you’re this close to being kicked out of the ballpark by a fast one that I never saw coming. Scratch that you’re tied. How am I supposed to survive until next Wednesday?

Look when, I started this show, I expected a mess. I’d only ever seen Hwang Jung Eum in Full House 2, which was awful though she made it amusing, and I’d never seen any of Ji Sung’s works before, besides having skimmed Secret briefly in 2013, turned off by the angst (though I adore it now). Point is, I came in with VERY low expectation, convinced to watch this only because of the sheer magnetism Ji Sung exerted on my poor heart when watching that first trailer. I got hijinks and humour, leather jackets, lipstick and lousy bombs (I’m looking at you Perry), poignancy and palpitations, gentle understanding and glorious kisses, all wrapped in this lovely sense of sheer joy, and warmth. And I loved it. Little did I know that a carefully spinner was working her spindle, having set into place a web that would soon begin to collapse in on itself. I – and just as with Dohyun yesterday, I seem to have cause to use this word again – adore this show. When the past few episodes began to degenerate rapidly into a horror/psychological thriller. I was overjoyed at the Liar Game-ness of it all, how well plotted and acted it was and how deep the rivers of emotion ran in these wonderful people.

I didn’t expect this.

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This is pure genius and officially escalated this show to Liar Game status, perhaps it’s even better in that it networks all genres seamlessly and effortlessly while Liar Game grabbed your throat and held it for the entirety of the episode, letting you only breathe at the end. Though that was today’s episode. You know it’s a good sign when you’re breathless after a show, and not just because of Ji Sung’s perfection. This explains so damn much. I’m absolutely over the moon at this turn of events.

Seeing that Rijin is the real Cha Dohyun, that leaves the question of just what Dohyun’s real name is. Seeing that his mother’s name is Shin Hwa Ran, that really only leaves one possibility: Shin Segi. This is incredible. The name was clearly pushed on him by Evil Grandma and Mom, and Dohyun, who didn’t remember anything at the time, simply accepted it. Yet some part of him new the truth, and couldn’t stay still as the last part of the girl who’d had to go through so much (and who was his first love) was twisted by the Seungjin family, and so Shin Segi separated from the memory-less Dohyun. This is wonderful. Not only does it give new meaning to Segi’s anger and frustration at being shut up in Dohyun/Ji Sung’s body, but it also makes Dohyun’s words to Segi much more eerie. You will soon become me…I will soon become you. Not only was that a promise but an eerie prediction of what the truth was. Dohyun is Segi, literally, figuratively, and legally. this makes Dohyun’s reinforcement of his name in previous episodes all the more more moving and sad, as it’s not his own. He has just lost the first bit of stability that he clung to. On the bright side, he’s just gained a new piece of himself: Segi. That solves the name game, I’ll be referring to Dohyun and Se gi interchangeably from now on, though Rijin will remain Rijin, because she really is a treasure, and it doesn’t feel right to address her by a name that is part of the most horrible days of her life.

But this raises a whole host of interesting questions. At the end of episode 11, there’s an eerie moment where Segi reverts to Dohyun at the beside of his dad/abuser in the hospital, and crazy dad moves his fingers in the SAME WAY Segi does, that one finger at a time slow roll. The fact that Nana is a projection of Rijin as a child, and today’s revelation, has led me to believe that there may be a real person behind almost every one of Dohyun’s personalities. The keyword here is: who? Who are these people? And most importantly, who truly is the main personality? Continue reading


Kill Me Heal Me Ep 15 Review (and why it’s not noble idiocy)

I made the mistake (?) of watching the previews of eps 15 and 16 before watching episode 15 today. And honestly, after seeing those previews I was tempted to skipped this week’s episodes. The pain and angst in there nearly made my teeth ache and I thought back to what I wrote about a week ago on my fear that Dohyun would start to treat Rijin like a china doll and that Ri on would begin to posture and argue that he knew what was better for Rijin than she did. Yet a brief clip within the related videos of Dohyun weeping while speaking of Rijin made my change my mind. I skimmed over it briefly, awed by Ji Sung’s acting as usual but Ri On’s tears gave me pause. Plus I love this show too much to do it the disservice of skipping a part of the narrative

So despite the inherent stupidity and noble idiocy that I felt was coming, I went ahead with watching episode 15.

I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I was completely and utterly wrong in so many ways. It feels like ym heart’s been used for target practice. How am I still breathing?

Yes, Rijin is going to be sent away for her own good. But firstly, this isn’t about Ri on and Dohyun knowing what’s best for Rijin and making decisions on her behalf without her input on the matter. Both men, Dohyun especially, have the horrible misfortune of being placed in an untenable position involving her. Dohyun can’t simply go up to her and blurt out that he’s recovered his memories. He can’t tell her what he’s learned due to how awful, disgusting and traumatic those events were for her. Due to how damn guilty he feels, even though it was something so far out of his control, and out of fear that he’ll shatter the life she’s made for herself. This was the same decision Ri on had to make all those years ago when he found the truth. Should he tell her and risk seeing her hurt and breaking the Oh family up? Or should he remain silent and bear the weight of it, watching her live her life as the bright empathetic person she is? He chose the latter and so does Cha Dohyun. Not because they don’t think her strong enough to handle the pain that will follow (both are quite aware and appreciative of what a strong person she is) but simply because they know it’s going to be long and arduous healing process. Learning that you were horribly abused as a child isn’t going to come easy. She’s going to wonder, why her? why didn’t anyone help her? Dohyun knows this because – and the reason is damn heartbreaking- he’s asked himself those same questions night after painful night. He, who wanted more than anything to love and be loved, knows what she’s going to feel, and never ever would he even think of putting her through that.

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Dear Kill Me Heal Me, what have you done to me? (and why Ji Sung is love)

I have two chapters of statistics and over three chapters of physics to get through, not to mention my french essay but screw all that. Because Kill Me Heal Me is killing me. I love this show. You guys are going to think this is yet another of my hyperbolic exclamations but seriously, dramaland is killing it this year (pun intended) because I’ve fallen so far down the rabbit-hole I don’t see myself getting back up. Ever.

(Edit: I honestly wrote this about a week ago, but kept having trouble with setting up the gallery so I postponed putting it up. Episodes 15 and 16 promise angst a plenty which this show has strayed away from quite a bit so I’m not too upset that it’s here. I just hope it’s resolved quickly for Rijin, Dohyun and Ri on’s sake. Rollercoaster of feels, here I come)

Ji Sung’s acting is beyond brilliant, and has ruined me for most other actors. I can’t even watch Faith without seeing Lee Min Ho’s stilted acting and making mental comparisons to how smexy and perfect Ji Sung would have been in the role. The last twenty minutes of episode 14 today honestly gave me goosebumps. And that ending? I was honestly trembling at the raw anger and horror and sheer pain in his eyes, his tears, hell his snot and the crazy wild-eyed terror in his eyes was…I honestly have no words to do it justice. Bravo, Ji Sung, bravo. Hwang Jung Eum and Park Seo Joon and the awesome Oh Family hit it out of the park, and break the fourth wall with such cheer and joy that you can’t help but want to be there, and be a part of it. The handling of Ri On and Dohyun’s relationship, rivalry and (b)romance (oh Yona!) is  nuanced and warm. The mysteries surrounding the Cha family (well those that pertain to Dohyun that is) finally come to light in a manner that’s horrifying, painful and so damn brilliant I want to cry. The promise of atonement Dohyun ground out while sobbing (and his vow of vengeance) to Evil Mom was an eerie echo of what Segi did to Evil Grandma. The two are definitely on the same side now. Continue reading


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Pinocchio, Kill Me Heal Me (and why Doctor Frost makes my heart ache)

My poor blog is once again suffering from neglect. I blame the start of the second semester of my second year in university (booooo). I’ve been regularly keeping up with dramas nevertheless. Honestly, the first I do when I get home is open the torrent files on my client xD It bothers me that I can’t recap them, but I’m honestly plumb out of time, what with the evil monster that is physics and my other…commitments. Actually no,that’s just me trying to say that I’ve been stuffing every waking hour with as many books, movies and dramas as possibles, while being forced to endure hours of boring lectures, and even more dreadful homework and assignments. Oh, and I’ve that book to write as well. Ugh. It’s just as well that this is a post on procrastination since I haven’t even gotten to the main topic yet.

Pinocchio concluded it’s 10 week run two weeks ago (TWO WEEKS? Where did the time fly? And I adored the fitting ending (complete with WEDDING DRESS, Thank you for the fanservice, writer-nim). I’ll admit that this dramas had its share of downs for me. The noble idiocy, the unnecessary angst (see eps 5, 6, 7, 13 and 14) and being beaten over the head with thematic statements was a little too much, and results in this work being far less comparable to Park Hye Run’s previous wonder: I Hear Your Voice. Yet, there were those moments within the show: In Ha firing Dal Po’s agonized words to her mother, Dal Po choosing to take the higher road time after time, Cap, Yoo Rae, Bum Jo’s sacrifice, Grandpa and Dad being perfect, Mom being properly humbled. Moment like that really held this show together, and gave the viewer a sense of awe, and hope. But more than that, it gave them a world where even the most unjust of injustices could be corrected, no matter how many years later, a world where people could heal and be healed, and be loved no matter what (hyung, Bum Jo’s mother). And to do that with such earnestness and joy isn’t easy. But Pinocchio did it, and I’m grateful to have made its acquaintance. Farewell, In Ha and Dal Po, I hope to see Park Shin Hye and Lee Jong Suk together on-screen sometime again. They’ve fantastic chemistry and have clearly done wonders for each other’s career (*coughcough*, I think PSH has cleared herself of that Frozen fish label?). Hopefully they’ll pull a Ji Sung and Hwang Jung Eum and work more of that magic over another good tale? One thing’s for sure, I’ll be down for the ride.

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Speaking of which, having a pair of established actors, who’ve already shown sizzling chemistry in a previous work, reunite so quickly must be a first for Kdramaland. I don’t think I’ve ever seen or heard of a ship reuniting so quickly, besides the PSH Yonghwa couple, and even that was two years later. This is barely over a year. But hey, I’m not complaining. Ji Sung is love, and regardless of how I feel about what Hwang Jung Eum is doing to her face, she can act, as evidenced in Secret. But that’s not the only great thing about these two. Kill Me Heal Me sounded like an absolute trainwreck until the first teaser came out with Ji Sung the Beautiful. Holy Moly Ravioli. Lee Bo Young is one lucky woman (As is Ji Sung to have such a perfect wife). Ji Sung not only pulls off ALL SEVEN personalities with aplomb and finesse, but his perfection even extends to the main persona. See, there’s always the risk with a personality as magnetic as Shin Se Gi, that the main character turns out a bit lacking. But Cha Do Hyun is…just marry me already. A chaebol who’s not a snooty brat? Sign me up. I love how he not only establishes each persona as highly individual, but extends a few of their characteristics to the main personality. Shin Se Gi’s brains (and if you ask me, a bit of that charisma as well), Perry Park’s haplessnesss, Ahn Yo Sub’s sorrow, Cha Do Hyun embodies all these things and more. And he’s so damn gentle, I can’t stop the squeals whenever he appears on screen. Scratch that, I can’t stop squealing. Period. My mom and sister now believe me to be a mental patient. They may be right. I’m loving the direction KHMH is heading and I really hope that we’ll focus more on the characters and personas, as well as how their past ties them together as opposed to chaebol inheritance thingamabobberies (because those are just dumb, and no one likes Mean Grandma anyway). And if Hwang Jung Eum tones down the screaming (please?) just a bit for the remainder of the show, we’re set in for a hell of a good ride.
Gosh I love this show!

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(Marry me, Cha Do Hyun!)

And speaking of good rides. Doctor Frost    evolved into the most abysmal waste of a good concept that I’ve ever seen. I stuck by this show faithfully, ignoring the wise words over at HanCinema and I get rewarded with dogshit. Literally, I don’t know whether I’m so pissed at this show because I expected so much, or because it’s just dumb. Put a pair of good actors like Song Chang Eui, Lee Yoon Ji, Jung Chae Eun and the fellow who plays Cheon Sang Won (and played that role for half a billion other shows), and you end up with this mess? The show is lackluster to say the least, even the previews for the next episode fail to inspire interest. After ep 6, I was honestly weeping tears of blood in disappointment (okay so slight exaggeration there). But gosh, what a waste of such good talent. The recaps likely won’t be continuing. Firstly because of school, and secondly because I’ve a book to write and not enough time to use on recapping (Forgive me Song Chang Eui, you did your best). To the wonderful people who’ve even googled the name of this blog in hopes of Doctor Frost recaps (I don’t who you are, random person, but you made my day with that search term) and to those who’ve been following the recaps on this blog the whole time, I sincerely apologize. Firstly, for how late the recaps were in coming, secondly for the fact that I’m not continuing them and thirdly, if you still love the show and I’m raining over your parade. I’m really sorry about this, and really grateful that this blog has gained the number of view it has over the pat three months. I’m really truly grateful for each and every person who reads/skims these pages. Thank you all so much!

I’ll continue a bit more in the next post. I think I’m going to need more space for the Healer squeefest.